lost

i have lost myself. i was looking so hard for the "real" me that i forgot to hold onto the one that was there before. and now i am lost. i hear noises and smell things and i find myself in those sensations. it's quite remarkable.

suffering i always take as a reminder. that my practice is not yet complete. i have changed so much but not changed at all. "i" have changed but i have not. it's foolish for me to even talk about this anyways.

show me something new?